Five Friends to a Hand

After hurricane Katrina I had to say good bye to Gall, Strobel, Price and others that I had known since basic training and the beginning of tech school. These men had become closer than my own brothers and better comrades than I had ever had before. But as they were to be evacuated and I stayed behind our journey together came to an adrupt halt. Some of the friendships would erode away over time like the Mississippi shoreline had during the storm. But it seems in our lives, especially the military life, our relationships are shortlived yet engrave us with experience and quench our thirsts whatever they may be.

My bestfriend here at Beale, Cheryl, has recently left for a middle east deployment. Due to my own scheduled deployment we will not see each other for 7 months. Of course there is email, letters and other forms of communication. I am going through withdrawals. Although she and I will just pick up where we left off when we meet up in December it is hard to not hate the interim period.

Other cultures drawf us for the short life spans of many of our relationships through our lives. Countries in the middle east and asia pride themselves with few relationship but life long relationships. Their countersign against the western saying "you can never have too many friends" is "you should have no more friends in you life than that which you can count on one hand. Focus on those few." At times I can not help but agree with them.

Cool Hand Luke

Netflix has afforded me the benefit of watching movies that I have always wanted to see but never got around to it. John Cusack says in the movie Serendipity that his charactor's favorite film in "Cool Hand Luke" starring Paul Newman. I of course had to venture to see it for myself...

Cool Hand Luke and Maxx Hackett are one and the same. Both seem to have ample intelligence but not enough to match their amount of daring(guts) that they seem to ride life on. We respect authority but understand its flaws and try to run from it yet always ending up back under it's thumb. Most importantly our relationship with God is the same. Luke doesn't believe in other's concept of God but knows he's there. In the climax of the movie Luke escapes the prison camp to make it to a church where he presents his case to God. All Luke asks for is a sign of from God, letting him now he's around. When no answer stirs he walks out to the authorities with the classic line "What we have hear is a failure to communicate." He is shot dead with a smile on his face. When I am out in the wilderness on my bike or driving in my car with the music blaring at sunset it is the time where I feel like communication is at it's best yet I am only told the least.

Decieved

She used me. No way around it. She wanted to make her ex boyfriend jealous. She showed me attention and I fell for it. Desperation combined with acting on the wrong impulses. After dropping her off and getting a nice good bye kiss, she called her ex boyfriend and told him how she and I had just hung out. More to the story, more to come.

I feel like the hoodlum involved with the crime syndicate. Except for that instead of taking the money and running I am shot and left for dead. If I were to be found than I would be the victim and the perpetrator and still go to jail.

A Spring California Scene

Let's paint a picture....

The beauty, the jockey,
in her british racing green
Tended to her horses
in the spring California scene

It would have been cold
if she wasn't holding me so close
but my insides were engulfed
with a capture of her pose

She led me through the stables
Up into the hay
Full moon above, my will was strong
but I kissed her anyway