I distinctly remember saying to myself in highschool "Maxx, you're not college material." Maybe it was my junior year, maybe my senior year, the thought crossed my mind numerous times both years, and not to my surprise it still lurks in my mind.
Discouraging is not the word to match my frustration. Part of me feels like I have grown as a person and a learner but I haven't. Yes I joined the military to get away. Right now it seems as if only for that reason. Abandoning my problems and heading west has not been the way out. I still deal with the same things now as I did then; humility, envy, desire, simplifying fractions, weight, poor time management and frustration. It is as if I have only added onto my persona without losing any of the traits that hold me back. Perhaps it is just my make up and some things I can never releave which I expect.
I would sit in AP English & SUPA, Algebra II & Statistics and feel stupid because I was behind everyone else. I would try my hardest, at least what I thought at the time was my hardest and nothing seemed to work. After being pushed down for four years the last thing my heart and mind wanted was to be pushed down for another four years. My intelligence is not high. I was raised to listen to instructions, to obey directions and that is what I did in school not making me smart just dutiful.
When it comes down to it I am studying for the SAT which I took in high school and received such a poor score that I neglected putting it to memory. I need the SAT to get into the Academy which is right now all I can focus on. As I study, it is remphasized to me how I am not college material.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Monday, September 25, 2006
the Air Force Ball
One T-38 Fighter behind me
SSgt Wild & I at the Air Force ball.
The General does need his sword!
Did any of you ever have the experience of seeing your school teachers in an unprofessional setting outside of the classroom? Maybe you see them at a restaurant throwing back a few with other educators? One time I saw my english teacher in a mosh pit at a concert. You forget they are normal people.
Officers in the military are viewed in a similar manner. Generals and colonels who are the commanders of fleets of fighter jets, nuclear weapons, trained killers, brigades of medics and more must be professional while in the public eye right? *Except when they are at the air force ball!*
These people were insane, they made college fraternity & sorority parties appear tamed. As an honor guardsman I presented the colors, did the POW/MIA table and presented the General with his sword. The night had its highs and lows i. e. the prime rib could have been better but the band was at its own level of awesome. That is the only complaint that I can think of. Once the band got started the officers started dancing, these are 38+ year old people who had their wives/dates dancing on the tables, sucking face on the dance floor and grinding like drunken college freshmen. The Cheif on base did the worm for god sake. The other honor guardsmen and I (who are enlisted) could not believe the outrageousness of the general grade and feild grade officers.
My good friend Lacy and I danced the night away and it was absolutely the funnest thing I have done so far on Beale AFB. I forgot how much I really like dancing and supposedly people tell me I am good at it so that was nice.
Oh and I am going to Washington D.C. for two weeks with SSgt Wild who is one of the coolest cats around. We are going to be training with the Air Force Honor Guard. These are the guys who do burials at Arlington Cemetary, guard the tomb of the unknown soldier, conduct official ceremonies for the President and foriegn dignataries and who throw the rifles around. My excitement is peaked.
Check out the Air Force Honor Guard below...
Monday, September 11, 2006
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Lasagna & Bullshit Contracts
Last night I demonstrated my culinary prowess with a fantastic vegitable lasagna. The Gulliver's allowed me to utilize their kitchen. I think the key to it was how I did not use the cop out Ricotta cheese for the filling. The Italian cook book I had showed a bechamel sauce consisting of
3 cups of milk
1 cup of flour
1 bay leaf
3 blades mace (I used grounded mace)
Romano/Parmesan cheese
Salt & Pepper
You just cook the milk in a sauce pan on low for 2-3 minutes then add everything else and just sitr it with a wire wisk forever (6-8 minutes) probably more and it becomes thick and full of calories thus very tastey.
I suggest everyone go onto MSNBC.com for the full article but I am extremely angry about how the Army has decided not to buy an Israeli system called "Trophy" which uses radar attached to a vehicle to shoot incoming RPG(Rocket Propelled Grenades) out of the sky before they hit our troops.
Israeli tests show "Trophy" as being more than 90% accurate in its ability to protect the vehicles it is attached to. The Pentagon conducted an investigation of its own on the "Trophy" system and found that it maintained a 98% accuracy rate.
Israel and other nations are already using "Trophy" on their vehicles to protect their troops but the US Army is not. Why you ask? Because Raytheon, a favorite defense contractor, of whom many of their employees I work with on my own job, already have a contract to develop a similar system to "Trophy." However such a system is not proposed to be finished until 2011. Suppossedly the Army can not drop out of it's contract with Raytheon even though they have not even started on the product yet. For all those military members who know about contracts they know that it takes forever for the product to get to where it is needed and alot of times it is faulty. Everyone knows politics and the concept of quid pro quo.
People like me, Maxx, are dieing in Iraq and Afgahnistan because of RPGs hitting our vehicles. There exists a defense system that has a 98% protection rate however it will not be purchased and implemented due to political ties and financial contracts.
3 cups of milk
1 cup of flour
1 bay leaf
3 blades mace (I used grounded mace)
Romano/Parmesan cheese
Salt & Pepper
You just cook the milk in a sauce pan on low for 2-3 minutes then add everything else and just sitr it with a wire wisk forever (6-8 minutes) probably more and it becomes thick and full of calories thus very tastey.
I suggest everyone go onto MSNBC.com for the full article but I am extremely angry about how the Army has decided not to buy an Israeli system called "Trophy" which uses radar attached to a vehicle to shoot incoming RPG(Rocket Propelled Grenades) out of the sky before they hit our troops.
Israeli tests show "Trophy" as being more than 90% accurate in its ability to protect the vehicles it is attached to. The Pentagon conducted an investigation of its own on the "Trophy" system and found that it maintained a 98% accuracy rate.
Israel and other nations are already using "Trophy" on their vehicles to protect their troops but the US Army is not. Why you ask? Because Raytheon, a favorite defense contractor, of whom many of their employees I work with on my own job, already have a contract to develop a similar system to "Trophy." However such a system is not proposed to be finished until 2011. Suppossedly the Army can not drop out of it's contract with Raytheon even though they have not even started on the product yet. For all those military members who know about contracts they know that it takes forever for the product to get to where it is needed and alot of times it is faulty. Everyone knows politics and the concept of quid pro quo.
People like me, Maxx, are dieing in Iraq and Afgahnistan because of RPGs hitting our vehicles. There exists a defense system that has a 98% protection rate however it will not be purchased and implemented due to political ties and financial contracts.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Aug. 22 - yes it was a special day
I am officially a 20 something now. The sad thing being that in my immediate area there are no coffee shops around to reside at like most 20 somethings do on sit coms. Other than that I am doing well.
Friends are wonderful. Cheryl, Lacy & Joannie woke me up on Tuesday, (my birthday) with a sweet pair of Addidas, cards from each, and a cake. It reminded me of when I was little, my mother would let me open up a present on the morning of my birthday and then I would wait until later in the day to open the rest. She is great like that.
To have people that can give you the same comfort while away from home as you get from those who are at home is a special gift. To realize something like this on my birthday was the best coincidence that has occured in my life for a while.
Now Cheryl is here and some new surprise is going to happen - don't get any ideas people.
Friends are wonderful. Cheryl, Lacy & Joannie woke me up on Tuesday, (my birthday) with a sweet pair of Addidas, cards from each, and a cake. It reminded me of when I was little, my mother would let me open up a present on the morning of my birthday and then I would wait until later in the day to open the rest. She is great like that.
To have people that can give you the same comfort while away from home as you get from those who are at home is a special gift. To realize something like this on my birthday was the best coincidence that has occured in my life for a while.
Now Cheryl is here and some new surprise is going to happen - don't get any ideas people.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Feva!!!!!
The title makes no sense jut felt like adding some flavor to the internet mindlessness.
Its been a while and still dont feel like adding a post and my new best friend Cheryl just showed up so I will be back later.
Its been a while and still dont feel like adding a post and my new best friend Cheryl just showed up so I will be back later.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Our Nation's Capitol
Rob Gulliver and I did a number on the streets of Washington D.C. Totally painted the town red. We hit all of the monuments plus the Smithsonian museums of American History and Air & Space. The american history museum had a bunch of really cool old cars that were really fun to look at. Air and space had alot of old planes which was nice. Being in the air force I am aware of cutting edge air and space technology and to see how far we have come was really something.
Alot of stuff happened during the day too - like getting locked out of the parking garage and then getting locked into the same parking garage and then almost running out of gas inside the locked parking garage. Yes it was a long ordeal and you should call me to hear the whole story.
Alot of stuff happened during the day too - like getting locked out of the parking garage and then getting locked into the same parking garage and then almost running out of gas inside the locked parking garage. Yes it was a long ordeal and you should call me to hear the whole story.
Monday, July 17, 2006
One Posh TDY
Reasons for this TDY being ridiculously awesome:
1. The first day of class we were released at 1300 since more than half the class had jet lag.
2. Rob Gulliver and I are driving around a brand new Ford Mustang
3. We got a $10 lawn ticket to see Huey Lewis & the News + Chicago. (Plus w/ the $10 ticket came a free Hardees' 1/3lb burger) So $10 bucks for a great show + a burger which usually costs 3.50!!
4. Nice weather
5. We are in Virginia Beach
6. I am getting a sweet Per Diem rate.
7. I sewed on A1C (Airman First Class aka 2 stripes on my arm)
Huey Lewis & the News are awesome live!!! They definitely jam out but not to the point where it is a self indulgent rock ego solo, they keep the crowd on their feet the whole time. Huey Lewis still sounds like he did in the 80s and the News was right on cue the whole night. Chicago came on and they sounded real good too, if I new more Chicago songs I would have enjoyed them more but with a career spanning as long as theirs, you would have to be a hardcore fan to know all of the songs in their repetoire.
Exercising is going well, I am feeling good about myself.
I have been in the Air Force for 15 months - hence the A1C. It has been a long time coming because now not only might I actually outrank someone but I will get more respect among upperranking individuals. The solo stripe of an airman yells "I'm new" but the 2 stripes of an Airman First Class usher in responsibilities as well as subtly saying "I know how things work around here." However when people look at my two stripes I hope to demonstrate to them that "I certainly don't know everything about how things work around here but I am on my way."
1. The first day of class we were released at 1300 since more than half the class had jet lag.
2. Rob Gulliver and I are driving around a brand new Ford Mustang
3. We got a $10 lawn ticket to see Huey Lewis & the News + Chicago. (Plus w/ the $10 ticket came a free Hardees' 1/3lb burger) So $10 bucks for a great show + a burger which usually costs 3.50!!
4. Nice weather
5. We are in Virginia Beach
6. I am getting a sweet Per Diem rate.
7. I sewed on A1C (Airman First Class aka 2 stripes on my arm)
Huey Lewis & the News are awesome live!!! They definitely jam out but not to the point where it is a self indulgent rock ego solo, they keep the crowd on their feet the whole time. Huey Lewis still sounds like he did in the 80s and the News was right on cue the whole night. Chicago came on and they sounded real good too, if I new more Chicago songs I would have enjoyed them more but with a career spanning as long as theirs, you would have to be a hardcore fan to know all of the songs in their repetoire.
Exercising is going well, I am feeling good about myself.
I have been in the Air Force for 15 months - hence the A1C. It has been a long time coming because now not only might I actually outrank someone but I will get more respect among upperranking individuals. The solo stripe of an airman yells "I'm new" but the 2 stripes of an Airman First Class usher in responsibilities as well as subtly saying "I know how things work around here." However when people look at my two stripes I hope to demonstrate to them that "I certainly don't know everything about how things work around here but I am on my way."
Friday, July 14, 2006
Scatter Brained in Virginia
Yes it has been a while since my last post. However after a recent conversation with a special person I was reminded that people still read my blog.
Virginia is nice, so far my Temporary Duty Yonder is working out pretty damn well. Langley AFB located in Norfolk is a sweet locale. A hell of a lot of traffic all the time but other than that there is everything that one would want to do. I am glad that Rob Gulliver is with me, there is really no one else that I would want to go TDY with other than him. He neither dishes out bullshit or puts up with it and that is admirable.
I got to see my buddy Brad Price formerly of the 338 TRS in Keesler AFB Mississippi now stationed at Langley AFB. It was nice to see him especially since I had not really seen him since Nov. 22 of last year. He looks good. It just goes to show how a regimented, secluded training environment like Keesler can really affect a person. Whereas an environment of freedom and respect & in Brad's case a better availability of beer can allow for a person to spread their wings and take off as he has.
Although it is hard not to notice but I am fat, weighing in at a plumb of 184lbs, which I am thoroughly upset about. It is called nightshift and late night snacks and it sux. My plan is to mutate into a gym rat.
One thing I am thankful in my life for is understanding people, specifically the understanding women. You know who you are. To have the ability to know where someone close to you is coming from when the two of you are so geographically separated...is amazing. Sometimes I wonder why some people put up with my antics but I have been taught to not question a good thing.
Virginia is nice, so far my Temporary Duty Yonder is working out pretty damn well. Langley AFB located in Norfolk is a sweet locale. A hell of a lot of traffic all the time but other than that there is everything that one would want to do. I am glad that Rob Gulliver is with me, there is really no one else that I would want to go TDY with other than him. He neither dishes out bullshit or puts up with it and that is admirable.
I got to see my buddy Brad Price formerly of the 338 TRS in Keesler AFB Mississippi now stationed at Langley AFB. It was nice to see him especially since I had not really seen him since Nov. 22 of last year. He looks good. It just goes to show how a regimented, secluded training environment like Keesler can really affect a person. Whereas an environment of freedom and respect & in Brad's case a better availability of beer can allow for a person to spread their wings and take off as he has.
Although it is hard not to notice but I am fat, weighing in at a plumb of 184lbs, which I am thoroughly upset about. It is called nightshift and late night snacks and it sux. My plan is to mutate into a gym rat.
One thing I am thankful in my life for is understanding people, specifically the understanding women. You know who you are. To have the ability to know where someone close to you is coming from when the two of you are so geographically separated...is amazing. Sometimes I wonder why some people put up with my antics but I have been taught to not question a good thing.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
the Older Young
Recovery for my wisdom teeth has gone well. My mouth hurt like hell on Sunday though, it was throbbing throughout the whole day and there were times when I didn't even want a mouth. However I have came through it despite there still being holes in my mouth plus the feeling of absent teeth.
There was this girl that I went on a date with where both she and I had a real good time, atleast the impression she gave out was that she had a real good time. Then she cancelled on me the next day that we were supposed to hang out, then we got together with some other people where we went to the mall and had a grand ol' time. She said she enjoyed herself however this did not prohibit her from canceling on me again the next time we were supposed to spend time together. My point being this: if she tells her friends that I am 'cute' + she tells me & others that she enjoyed herself with me yet she cancels on me what the hell is going on. A serious mixed message.
Dating...That is just how it goes right? After conversing with the Gullivers(Rob & Johanna) it has been decided that women my age(or perhaps woman period) are into subliminally finding out who I am and my reactions to certain stimuli. Whereas I am not really subliminal at all, [perhaps it is my maturity level(whether it be low/mid/high for my age), me having a penis and all, or just Maxx] I find no point in beating around the bush. Straight forward like a good shot of liquor, it will burn your throat and make you choose your words carefully/recklessly but they will be the words you really want to say nonetheless.
People keep telling me "you are young, be single." However my point being to them: "I have no desire to get married and settle down, but my youth stage right now is calling for a progression in the relationship department. To me, that is what being young is. Plus I have been young, my psyche is ready to be an older young, which I feel I have always been but now prepared for a greater depth. I am ready to be a 20 year old Maxx Hackett."
There was this girl that I went on a date with where both she and I had a real good time, atleast the impression she gave out was that she had a real good time. Then she cancelled on me the next day that we were supposed to hang out, then we got together with some other people where we went to the mall and had a grand ol' time. She said she enjoyed herself however this did not prohibit her from canceling on me again the next time we were supposed to spend time together. My point being this: if she tells her friends that I am 'cute' + she tells me & others that she enjoyed herself with me yet she cancels on me what the hell is going on. A serious mixed message.
Dating...That is just how it goes right? After conversing with the Gullivers(Rob & Johanna) it has been decided that women my age(or perhaps woman period) are into subliminally finding out who I am and my reactions to certain stimuli. Whereas I am not really subliminal at all, [perhaps it is my maturity level(whether it be low/mid/high for my age), me having a penis and all, or just Maxx] I find no point in beating around the bush. Straight forward like a good shot of liquor, it will burn your throat and make you choose your words carefully/recklessly but they will be the words you really want to say nonetheless.
People keep telling me "you are young, be single." However my point being to them: "I have no desire to get married and settle down, but my youth stage right now is calling for a progression in the relationship department. To me, that is what being young is. Plus I have been young, my psyche is ready to be an older young, which I feel I have always been but now prepared for a greater depth. I am ready to be a 20 year old Maxx Hackett."
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Sacramento River Valley
I lived while the Moon crossed the blanket
My days were the night without grief
Never had I thought to thank it
Until the sunrise stole my nighttime like a thief
Halfway between San Francisco
And the Sierra Nevada too
I never knew the sun was this slow
Until I watched it rise with you
the World can't be read as it turns so,
fast - you learn how to abide
As you help me look to the inferno
I feel I'm being reforged inside
I thought I knew my being
Night sky covered my flaws
As my twilight is fleeing
I love the luminance you've caused
Halfway between San Francisco
And the Sierra Nevada too
I never knew the sun was this slow
Until I watched it rise with you
This is a work in progress so don't distress
My mind was wandering so I began pondering
I was humming a song by Dylan & Van letting a phrase fall into my hand
Night shift is slow at work so to keep the perk
My emotions become hysterical in order to be lyrical
Until my next transcription
Let us tell our friends of www.maxxhackett.blogspot.com and make it their addiction.
My days were the night without grief
Never had I thought to thank it
Until the sunrise stole my nighttime like a thief
Halfway between San Francisco
And the Sierra Nevada too
I never knew the sun was this slow
Until I watched it rise with you
the World can't be read as it turns so,
fast - you learn how to abide
As you help me look to the inferno
I feel I'm being reforged inside
I thought I knew my being
Night sky covered my flaws
As my twilight is fleeing
I love the luminance you've caused
Halfway between San Francisco
And the Sierra Nevada too
I never knew the sun was this slow
Until I watched it rise with you
This is a work in progress so don't distress
My mind was wandering so I began pondering
I was humming a song by Dylan & Van letting a phrase fall into my hand
Night shift is slow at work so to keep the perk
My emotions become hysterical in order to be lyrical
Until my next transcription
Let us tell our friends of www.maxxhackett.blogspot.com and make it their addiction.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
3.5 Teeth, An Unbroken Heart, Mind Altering Drugs & I have been put onto the Market
Audrey is definitely one of the better people I know. Just so every one knows, she and I are no longer officially boyfriend and girlfriend. Things had been on my mind for a few days, bothering me, and I knew that I could talk to her about anything, so we talked and we mutually decided that for where we are in our lives it is best not to be in a long distance relationship right now. Don't get me wrong, Audrey and I were doing real well, we were happy with each other, just I think we realized that under different circumstances we would be able to be together. Just yesterday I called her after the few days away time and we had a nice conversation like we were just bestfriends again. I am glad we were able to talk the way we did and hopefully it will continue.
3.5 teeth, yes .5 of a tooth. I am going under the knife Thursday morning to have both bottom wisdom teeth, my left side molar, and possibly half of my right side molar. Thus the 3.5 . It will be painful but I will be riding the lightning for most of the weekend with the hardcore painkillers. It sux cuz I won't be able to attend the Counting Crows/Goo Goo Dolls concert or go white water rafting on Sunday but oh well. For the sake of my health I guess.
Painkillers yes!!!!
Its hot here, I'm tired. Some of my friends are on missions to find me a date since I am officially 'available' despite me telling them that I am not ready to plunge into something else just yet. Personally I think they are crazy to put me on the market during the week I have a surgery and are on mind altering drugs. Not the best time for my industries to go public.
3.5 teeth, yes .5 of a tooth. I am going under the knife Thursday morning to have both bottom wisdom teeth, my left side molar, and possibly half of my right side molar. Thus the 3.5 . It will be painful but I will be riding the lightning for most of the weekend with the hardcore painkillers. It sux cuz I won't be able to attend the Counting Crows/Goo Goo Dolls concert or go white water rafting on Sunday but oh well. For the sake of my health I guess.
Painkillers yes!!!!
Its hot here, I'm tired. Some of my friends are on missions to find me a date since I am officially 'available' despite me telling them that I am not ready to plunge into something else just yet. Personally I think they are crazy to put me on the market during the week I have a surgery and are on mind altering drugs. Not the best time for my industries to go public.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Sportulae Mittebat
Mom, Ira & Louise are coming on Friday and I am little stressed. It turns out there is a honor guard detail Friday afternoon that is about 2.5 hours away. I am going to ask if I can get out of it so as to be able to actually greet my family Friday afternoon/evening. Then there is a wedding detail on Sunday and they want us to be there literally all day. So I am going to suggest that my family go to Napa Valley on Sunday then Monday we will hopefully check out Lake Tahoe. There is not too much of a reason for me to get tense about this but of course I am because...well...I am me and that is what I am doing.
Since I know Sophie & Audrey read this - Sportulae mittebat.
Since I know Sophie & Audrey read this - Sportulae mittebat.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
WooooooWeeeee!!!!! Stuff has been exciting!!!
Synopsis:
Audrey & Sophie went to prom so I called Karen Lewis and had her drop off some flowers to them since the florist that has saved me numerous times was closed on Sundays which I can not believe since it was prom and all.
Memorial day was kind of long on Honor guard. I had to do my first firing party however I psyched myself out and forgot to take the safety off on my M14 so there was no shot from my rifle. Definitely not my shining moment.
Two things in my life that I despise: Dogs (animals in general) & my Stomach(yes capitol 'S' because sometimes I feel like it has an aura of it's own)
Mom, Ira and his significant other Louise will be at Beale on Friday for the Air Show where we are expecting over 100,000 people. It will be real nice to show my mother the life I have made for myself out here.
Everyone should definitely try and see the movie "Highschool Musical." Yes, you all laugh however it is a wonderful movie with some good semi-simplistic pop songs.
Any of you who are familiar with the 1968 album "Live at Folsom" by Johnny Cash where he played at Folsom prison. I totally drove by there for an honor guard detail which I thought was pretty cool.
Question to leave you all with...How hard is it to get the person you are in love with across the country to be right next to you? In the words of Aretha..."Ya'll better Think!"
Audrey & Sophie went to prom so I called Karen Lewis and had her drop off some flowers to them since the florist that has saved me numerous times was closed on Sundays which I can not believe since it was prom and all.
Memorial day was kind of long on Honor guard. I had to do my first firing party however I psyched myself out and forgot to take the safety off on my M14 so there was no shot from my rifle. Definitely not my shining moment.
Two things in my life that I despise: Dogs (animals in general) & my Stomach(yes capitol 'S' because sometimes I feel like it has an aura of it's own)
Mom, Ira and his significant other Louise will be at Beale on Friday for the Air Show where we are expecting over 100,000 people. It will be real nice to show my mother the life I have made for myself out here.
Everyone should definitely try and see the movie "Highschool Musical." Yes, you all laugh however it is a wonderful movie with some good semi-simplistic pop songs.
Any of you who are familiar with the 1968 album "Live at Folsom" by Johnny Cash where he played at Folsom prison. I totally drove by there for an honor guard detail which I thought was pretty cool.
Question to leave you all with...How hard is it to get the person you are in love with across the country to be right next to you? In the words of Aretha..."Ya'll better Think!"
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Resonating From the Mist that is the Deep Night Sleep
So it's been a while since my last post and we will leave it at that.
Things are better, a whole lot better. Work was real tough for a little bit. A friend and I were not on the best of terms which added to the stress at work a whole lot. The UCI inspection of the entire base was in conduction so the stress level of the entire base was high. Finally the inspection ended, my shop met 100% compliance with all orders(A++) and my friend called me to work things out so that was all good.
It seems like in the past week all I have been helping people do is move their stuff. First Byrd & Stokes moved into a new place which is soon to become a new home of mine seeing as how they are probably my two closest friends here. Then I helped Rob Gulliver's sister move out of his house which was an 8 hour ordeal in itself. So I hope I don't have to move any of my stuff anytime soon cause that would suck big time. Sorting through your own baggage is tough enough, let alone another person's baggage and have to move it all.
No way around it. I am fat, husky, whatever. It is not fun. Must run faster & longer.
Lately my dreams have been quite articulate in who they have in them. I have had two dreams in the last 3 days with women i.e. friends & crushes & women who had crushes on me & women who I have just dealt with in the past. Audrey and I have analyzed them with her dream dictionary and from what we have gathered I think they are telling me that I have some relationships that I should perhaps rekindle.
So since tomorrow is Friday and hopefully most of you who are reading this will go out with friends after work perhaps for a drink, I hope you all raise your glasses to this - the rekindling of relationships that resonate in the mist that is the deep night sleep.
Things are better, a whole lot better. Work was real tough for a little bit. A friend and I were not on the best of terms which added to the stress at work a whole lot. The UCI inspection of the entire base was in conduction so the stress level of the entire base was high. Finally the inspection ended, my shop met 100% compliance with all orders(A++) and my friend called me to work things out so that was all good.
It seems like in the past week all I have been helping people do is move their stuff. First Byrd & Stokes moved into a new place which is soon to become a new home of mine seeing as how they are probably my two closest friends here. Then I helped Rob Gulliver's sister move out of his house which was an 8 hour ordeal in itself. So I hope I don't have to move any of my stuff anytime soon cause that would suck big time. Sorting through your own baggage is tough enough, let alone another person's baggage and have to move it all.
No way around it. I am fat, husky, whatever. It is not fun. Must run faster & longer.
Lately my dreams have been quite articulate in who they have in them. I have had two dreams in the last 3 days with women i.e. friends & crushes & women who had crushes on me & women who I have just dealt with in the past. Audrey and I have analyzed them with her dream dictionary and from what we have gathered I think they are telling me that I have some relationships that I should perhaps rekindle.
So since tomorrow is Friday and hopefully most of you who are reading this will go out with friends after work perhaps for a drink, I hope you all raise your glasses to this - the rekindling of relationships that resonate in the mist that is the deep night sleep.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Mind Searching
Work was tough today. Just one of those days, well the past few days of work actually. My head just hasn't been in the game or something. Things that I was able to do no problem I am now having trouble with and fucking up on. Of course there was a lapse of 1 month that I was absent due to honor guard and leave but still that is no excuse. When the mind is searching for the answer when you know the answer is close - talk about frustrating.
I am listening to Van Morrison's Tupelo Honey hoping the aroma of his voice and the scent of the band will sedate me into serenity.
I am listening to Van Morrison's Tupelo Honey hoping the aroma of his voice and the scent of the band will sedate me into serenity.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Beale Falls Expedition
Josh Yennie, Patrick Clendenning, Heather whatever & I took a little hike out to Beale Falls. It was a nice little hike on a beautiful day. California is finally the sunny california that we new englanders see on TV. Everyday is beautiful and there is really no reason to even check the weather report because you know what the weather is going to be.
After 1 month of not going into the shop I finally returned to work. It was so awesome. There were a few times where I was losing my mind because I could not remember how to do things that I had done numerous times before but it had been so long you know? Work is real nice, I forgot how nice it was to work where I do. There is bullshit, complainers and so on but we can't ask for everything in this world can we people?
Off to buckle down and do CDCs!!!!
Everyone should go invest in the live album Rock Spectacle by the Barenaked Ladies. It is dynamite.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Y'all Know What I'a Mean!
On a beautiful sunday morning I decide to procrastinate from doing my CDCs thus the blog post. For some reason since I have returned home I just can not get myself into a motivational routine. I'm unsure what the deal is.
Yesterday was a draining day. It was the first time I had the opportunity to go skiing when it was 82 degrees & sunny. You would sweat in a long sleeve shirt up the chair lift but then you would fly down the mountain and get the breeze to cool you off, rinse and repeat. It was awesome. Plus it was due to my military stanind it was free. Then we went to the Silverada Casino in Reno to have lunch. All three of us were in our service dress so we looked sharp and got a lot of attention which was nice. I still feel that the whole "a woman loves a man in uniform" is complete bullshit. I know I have never gotten a second look or a smile from women when I have been in my blues. I think that rumour was created by military men who thought they were God's gift to women or something.(I know that I know alot of men like that) We had a good lunch at the casino and then we went to the wrong funeral home so we barely made our funeral (or should I say the funeral that we had to do) @ 3:00. Then we visited this ultra nice house of family that was friends of one of the guys I was with. They were real good people. Finally we departed Reno NV to go on some exploration detours on the way back. It was a good day but a long day.
After a day like that all one would want to do is go home and crash you know? But Audrey ended up calling - need I say more!!!???!!! - just kidding. She was exactly what I needed to round off my day. We had a real nice conversation like we usually do but this was a little extra. Most people want to be embraced by their loved one after a day like I had but such a thing can not happen do to the geographical situation Audrey and I are currently in. However last night reaffirmed that with the way she treats me and I treat her that we can still give each other the sense of comfort that we are side by side.
So off to force myself to do my CDCs a.k.a. HOMEWORK!!!! So in the words of my friend Bri Wilson the Texan "Y'all know what I'a mean!"
Yesterday was a draining day. It was the first time I had the opportunity to go skiing when it was 82 degrees & sunny. You would sweat in a long sleeve shirt up the chair lift but then you would fly down the mountain and get the breeze to cool you off, rinse and repeat. It was awesome. Plus it was due to my military stanind it was free. Then we went to the Silverada Casino in Reno to have lunch. All three of us were in our service dress so we looked sharp and got a lot of attention which was nice. I still feel that the whole "a woman loves a man in uniform" is complete bullshit. I know I have never gotten a second look or a smile from women when I have been in my blues. I think that rumour was created by military men who thought they were God's gift to women or something.(I know that I know alot of men like that) We had a good lunch at the casino and then we went to the wrong funeral home so we barely made our funeral (or should I say the funeral that we had to do) @ 3:00. Then we visited this ultra nice house of family that was friends of one of the guys I was with. They were real good people. Finally we departed Reno NV to go on some exploration detours on the way back. It was a good day but a long day.
After a day like that all one would want to do is go home and crash you know? But Audrey ended up calling - need I say more!!!???!!! - just kidding. She was exactly what I needed to round off my day. We had a real nice conversation like we usually do but this was a little extra. Most people want to be embraced by their loved one after a day like I had but such a thing can not happen do to the geographical situation Audrey and I are currently in. However last night reaffirmed that with the way she treats me and I treat her that we can still give each other the sense of comfort that we are side by side.
So off to force myself to do my CDCs a.k.a. HOMEWORK!!!! So in the words of my friend Bri Wilson the Texan "Y'all know what I'a mean!"
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